Let it Go

The Life-changing Moments

How should I start? Well, I must quote from my previous teacher (Sir Januar Yap ) whom I dearly respect and look up,that in writing you have to let go all what is in your mind...free writing,as what we called it in literature.Then surprisingly, you'll never expect that you have the most messy yet beautiful ideas out from your brainstorming. So here I go....

I wanna share what are the remarkable and radiant life-changing moments that happened to me recently...It was last Saturday,to date March 19, 2011 when  we went to Seaside just to look for something extraordinary..However, we never saw one.WE were upset.The next thing I did, I look up the sky and told Edz," Sis, isnt the sky too gloomy for today?" She replied," Yes, its raining.Havent you seen the droplets?" Oh, now I feel the droplets after you said about it, I muttered.And I ran, make some splashes of water and played with it like a five year old kid. Diolanie another sister of mine followed me.We were so eager of playing with the water. I stopped, I told her even though the sky is too dark but I can  still feel up there that the sun will share its radiance even at the last hour of our staying in the Seashore.I was kinda predicting unconsciously like Madam Auring(seer).After a while she pushed me..i got wet..so i removed my clothes and let it dry.And I swam...hahaha.i was thrilled by the small waves that go back and forth...I paused for  a moment and take a glimpse at my life.WE talked heart-to-heart issues and concerns..about the temple covenants..of endowments...of the temple marriage and of Exaltation..MMMm.i was startled..Temple Marriage?I quickly told her, I wanted to but Im not sure I can go in there.I think I will stay as what I am..of being Single and serving the LOrd.But on the second thought I remembered of what (one of the close Elders) teh Elders told me during my gospel essential class, " Its one of God's Commandments for you to enter in His Kingdom.Dont be too passive:ask,seek,and knock unto the Lord.Pray and Fast.I thought seriously and uttered: Okey, I will go to the temple..and have a temple marriage.This is my goal.The next day, Sunday...I never expect that my heart skipped a beat faster than the usual.This is it..and now, I have to pray because i have asked..Do what has to be done in thy Lord's will.I know my sisters know my story.But only half of it.I know my story three-fourth of it but heavenly Father knows the whole story...What is important is that I have this strange feeling and I already forgot my Past Broken Heart.I have my greatest and inspiring knowlegable Heart.A heart who knows how to judge and listen to the Voice of The Spirit...I look up my days with the gloomy side of yesterday..but I foresee my Future as radiant as the summer sky with HIM.