The Voice of Filipina Amazona

Thought for the night # 12

"I am a writer. I am  single. I am happy. I am who I am. "

       As I am standing in front of these young hearts, young minds yet the very talented eavesdropping entities in the universe, my heart skip a beat in a while. How can be someone like me pushes to the brim of fatal confession about her life? Someone like me who dares to be so proud of her being? Too broad to tell, but I'll share you the whole story.

       When I was invited by a friend of mine to this literary circle of women, I never say NO. I love women *not because I am a lesbian. I am hilariously straight. The fact is I love discussions of mind, gaining different perspectives in life on the daylight with women of the new generation. So when my part took over, I did the powerful intro line saying : what is our essence as a woman? Then, a boomerang hits me with the question of my personal life. Boom! One lady, the very timid and weird one with big eye glasses asked me : what is your essence as a woman in a man's life? 

         Speechless, stunned as I am but I faced the question with dignity. Hence, I said : Man can not find a woman like me in today's era. I am exquisite. My beauty is timeless and my great qualities lives until eternity. My essence and happiness cannot be measured by a man's existence. Whether I submit myself to any man I chooses to be with or not, he cannot take my whole being. I don't claim to be submissive because I believe in gender equality. I don't find any man to complete me because I am completely complete already. Well, sexually not but that's not my point. (they laughed) My point is : that everything we need is only a matter of the way we perceived. Think what you want and you'll get what you think. Simple, right? 

           I am single and I am happy. I am a writer and I don't write to lie. I am a woman and I stand up for who I am. The question of having a man or not having a man in my life is IRRELEVANT. Why wait for him to find my essence when in fact there are so many things to work worthwhile with. Find your essence within yourself. What can you do to yourself, to your community, to your family and above all to our one common God? Think about it. Don't waste your time young ladies to be so clingy and so hopelessly romantic of finding your essence in a man's life. You'll grow with it. I'm done mine. I have a closure of Living a life in such a fairy tale adventure. I am a grown up woman with so many dreams and visions to contribute for our progression. And I am not saying I am closing my door to any man. Of course not, he just need to find the right key to open my heart. I have been locking it since the day I have realized . When was it? It was a long time ago. That moment when i saw how men played the feelings of women. The moment when a lot of women shed tears, was left behind, was crucified by the fact that they are not enough for sexual satisfaction. The moment when worldly things empower men to concentrate to. To be honest, it causes me too much pain seeing them. I am a woman too. An advocate of women's rights and protection. This is the main reason why i just laugh at myself when people ask my single status. They don't believe it. Who cares? I'm just being honest. And the only truth i hold to is whoever the man i may give my heart to is lucky enough to win a jackpot.

            Now, young lady did  I answer your question? 

She was on mute. Truth makes people tied their tongues. Whoever is reading this, please share the truth : make yourself available for your own happiness. Not one completes you. But Everybody does complete you. Check your status on Facebook.